InsaneJournal

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...oh, dear.
...it's been almost two years since I last saw her. ["Her" being my former best friend, who I had known since I was two and who I had been absolutely stuck at the hip with since I was eleven. And who I really never thought would turn on me, buuut life surprises you sometimes~.]

Two years on the thirteenth of this month.

I...am having a really hard time processing this. And really kind of wish I hadn't realised it at all.

Even if I know it's for the best, I'll admit it hurts that I'll probably never see her again, that the last time was that long ago.

God.

But I'm glad, at least, that despite all the shit that came after, the last time really is a good memory and something that still makes me smile. Even including the phrase "Fucktards in a church." (Ahahahaha we had the best friendship ever, we really did. So much awesome crack everywhere. ♥)

It's just a pity that out of everyone, she probably came the closest to making sense out of me, and even she failed in the end.

...BUT I CANNOT LET MYSELF EMO TOO MUCH BECAUSE THE KENTUCKY DERBY IS TODAY OMFG~~. ♥♥♥

Yes, I am a horse racing geek and have been for years, and yes, I get very excited. XDDD